Flat on my face

In the past month, my son has completely changed. I always knew that he had a sin nature, I even saw it at times, but in the past month rebellion, stubbornness, and direct disobedience have all become clearly evident. First they were evident in his actions, then in his words. I’m not shocked at this fact, but I am shocked by the responsibility! This soul that I treasure, while not mine to save, is mine to guide.

Parenting--- I’m afraid I’m going to fall flat on my face!

Suddenly, it occurs to me. Being flat on my face is exactly where I need to be

Bowed in anguish before my God

Pleading my inability and HIS ABILITY

God, keep me flat on my face as I raise my children!

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16 Weeks

What's going on this week:

I'm feeling the baby move a lot. This child is far more active than his brother was, and I have to wonder if we're in for a big personality surprise!

My sickness is gradually decreasing. We turned a real corner around 11 1/2 weeks, and I am so thankful! I still throw up during morning diaper changes, but that's all.

I. feel. huge. And I know I'm only beginning. So far I have lost 5 lbs, and gained them back. I'm still at my start weight for this pregnancy.

Kyle is a champ. We're teaching him to say "baby" and touch my belly gently. I wonder how much he will understand before this little one arrives? I'm praying that my labor will be shorter this time, so that time spent away from Kyle will be minimal. I'm thankful that we're using a birth center, and will be able to return home the same day that this baby is born. I know it will make the transition much easier for him!

I feel much more exhausted this time around. I'm thankful for a 1 year old who naps well, and I'm taking advantage of those afternoon naps to sneak one in for myself. What a blessing! One I probably won't have next time around... :-)

While I'm not one to "love" pregnancy, and talk about it as the best 9 months of my life, I am trying to enjoy it for what it is. I love this baby so much already!

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Wordless Wednesday

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News :-)

Well, I’m squeaking in a blog entry for the month! My goal was to post once a week, and the past while that has NOT been happening. However, this month I have a very good (and exciting!) reason. Tim and I found out that we’re expecting another baby. :-D

The baby is due in early March, and I am currently in the throes of “all day sickness.” That’s actually what I want to write about today, because the Lord has been using my sickness to teach me about Himself.

I was sick during my pregnancy with Kyle. Really sick. But I know that every pregnancy is different, and so I went into this one with optimism and my chin held high. However, to date this pregnancy has been an exact mirror of my pregnancy with Kyle. I’ll admit that I’ve had some discouraging days along the way. I hate being sick, I hate throwing up, and I hate the look on my little boys face when I lay on the couch instead of playing on the floor. I did the math, and if this pregnancy continues to be just like Kyle’s was (hoping that won’t happen!), I will feel better around November 3’rd. Two weeks of sickness down, let’s see… thirteen weeks to go.

I love this baby. I am thankful for this baby. Tim and I have prayed for this baby. He is an answer to prayer. He is a gift from God. Truly children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb is His reward. I have employed a technique that I used during my sickness with Kyle, each time I’m “hugging the toilet” I thank God out loud for my baby. I praise Him for the little life growing inside of me, for the soul that He is entrusting to our care. I remember those of my dear friends who have prayed for a baby, and the Lord has yet to answer. How selfish it is for me to complain! I praise God for this opportunity to live out the gospel by laying down my current life for this new little one. I even (sometimes) thank God for the fact that I’m sick.  As I voice these things to the Lord, each and every time I feel my heart come back into line with my current calling. Truly, I am blessed!

I remember being impressed by a thought when I first looked into the face of my little Kyle. I suddenly realized that he was the only thing I could take with me to heaven. His soul, entrusted to Tim and I for care and upbringing, would Lord willing live with us in joy for eternity. His soul was the only thing from earth that we could take with us. As I remember that lesson now, it is as sobering today as it was then. God has called me to be a Mom. For the rest of my life that calling will impact my happiness more than any other calling I receive. It is a good calling, and one that I will praise the Lord for.

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Vintage Rocking Horse

I found this vintage rocking horse today, and got it for... well... almost a steal. The guy didn't bargain down as far as I would have liked, but it still cost less than a new one, and has so much more character! Kyle spent the whole evening on it. Isn't it adorable?

I'm assuming that the paint is lead based, so am planning to re-do this treasure. I'm a little nervous about free-handing the face... but it looks simple enough to copy. What do y'all think? Should I paint him a bright glossy red?

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Kyle's Birthday Party

Today we celebrated Kyle's first birthday! It's hard to believe that it's been a year since this wonderful blessing first arrived in our arms. He has been a joy each day of his life, and we truly praise the Lord for him!

The theme of his "1'st Birthday" was ducks. They are by far his favorite animal, always causing a smile to light his face.

Here is the duck cake that I made for him...

I know that my kid is generally not a messy eater... so I wasn't surprised when we didn't get a lot of "cake smashing" action. He did however, enjoy his cake. We gave him the duck's beak, and there wasn't much left of it by the end. He slowly chipped away on it!

My cousin-in-law Mary from Three Loves made Kyle this adorable first birthday onesie with our colors, his age, name... and of course, a duck on it.

Kyle wasn't very excited about the long line of presents, but he was given some amazing toys that I know he'll enjoy in the months to come!

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Kyle's First Haircut

At almost 11 months, Kyle's hair was in need of a good haircut. While I cut "Daddy's" hair myself, I wanted to take Kyle to Jelly Beans for his first haircut. I'll probably do it myself from now on, but it was a fun experience for us!

Here he is getting his "shampoo"

He was a brave boy!

After the shampoo was over, he started to actually enjoy himself

It was a fun memory. My little baby is getting so BIG! I have all his "shorn" little curls to keep, and thankfully his hair seems to have remained curly. I love his curls!

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