Flat on my face

In the past month, my son has completely changed. I always knew that he had a sin nature, I even saw it at times, but in the past month rebellion, stubbornness, and direct disobedience have all become clearly evident. First they were evident in his actions, then in his words. I’m not shocked at this fact, but I am shocked by the responsibility! This soul that I treasure, while not mine to save, is mine to guide.

Parenting--- I’m afraid I’m going to fall flat on my face!

Suddenly, it occurs to me. Being flat on my face is exactly where I need to be

Bowed in anguish before my God

Pleading my inability and HIS ABILITY

God, keep me flat on my face as I raise my children!

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16 Weeks

What's going on this week:

I'm feeling the baby move a lot. This child is far more active than his brother was, and I have to wonder if we're in for a big personality surprise!

My sickness is gradually decreasing. We turned a real corner around 11 1/2 weeks, and I am so thankful! I still throw up during morning diaper changes, but that's all.

I. feel. huge. And I know I'm only beginning. So far I have lost 5 lbs, and gained them back. I'm still at my start weight for this pregnancy.

Kyle is a champ. We're teaching him to say "baby" and touch my belly gently. I wonder how much he will understand before this little one arrives? I'm praying that my labor will be shorter this time, so that time spent away from Kyle will be minimal. I'm thankful that we're using a birth center, and will be able to return home the same day that this baby is born. I know it will make the transition much easier for him!

I feel much more exhausted this time around. I'm thankful for a 1 year old who naps well, and I'm taking advantage of those afternoon naps to sneak one in for myself. What a blessing! One I probably won't have next time around... :-)

While I'm not one to "love" pregnancy, and talk about it as the best 9 months of my life, I am trying to enjoy it for what it is. I love this baby so much already!

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